Crossroads

A friend recently told me that I'm at a crossroads. This struck me by surprise. News to me. I am? What does that mean? Is this the same as a fork in the road? If so, what are my choices? I guess I've felt stuck in a rut for a while now.

When I was younger I had a pretty good support group. People were always encouraging me to keep going whether it involved music, school, weight loss, or relationships. I suddenly feel a little lost now when the responsibility has fallen on me. I have to motivate myself, geez! It's a lot easier to motivate someone else. ha!I miss being in school. If it weren't for the enormous amount of existing school debt I'd be in the classroom again. I guess I just need to find opportunities that provide the same level of challenge.

Last night I had a glimpse into what I've been missing. I attended a grant reading workshop for a local foundation supporting social change in our community. I was in awe listening to one of the women talk. The intelligence was just oozing out of her. I found myself wishing for a fraction of the enthusiasm and passion she possessed for her work. I wonder...have I just not found the right thing to be passionate about, or do I lack that level of intensity?