Well, last weekend I accomplished one of my goals for the year. I ran my second 5K this year. Clearly, I can finish them. Now...I suppose I should challenge myself to improve my time on the next one. I was happy to finish in 38 minutes. For me, it's more important to just continue jogging and not have to stop to walk. I even braved the cold for this one and I still finished so I guess aside from wet conditions I can't really have many more excuses.
Even though I finished the two runs this year. I'm still up 30lbs from my lowest weight. This is a huge disappointment considering how hard I worked to get my weight down. I can make excuses for why I gained the weight back or why I haven't lost it yet, but it's ultimately my own doing. It's time to do something about it.
Some of my earlier blogs talked about things around the house, debt consolidation (evil credit cards) and relationships with guys. All of the above are still issues but what I'm realizing is that they always will be. These are just the facts of life and I've been letting them win. It's time for me to start taking control of the situations rather than them controlling me. I watched one of my favorite movies last night. There is a revelation that I love and can relate to. It's something like..."I should be the leading lady of my own life...". So true...so true. This year has been a period of chaos and confusion for me. Chalk it up to a learning experience and move on. Just because I don't realize what I've gained from it right now doesn't mean that I won't eventually. I need to just keep plugging along.
It seems the purpose of this blog is to organize my thoughts and kick it back to me. This doesn't really benefit anyone else, or readers. Simply myself. Maybe someday this will lead to the benefit of others.
For now...I'm looking forward to the upcoming Holidays. I have a cookie exchange coming up with some of my closest girlfriends. I can't wait to have everyone at my house. I've decided I'm going to make an effort to welcome people into my home more frequently. I attended an event a week ago and I heard a lady give a testimonial about her grandmother. She remembered her grandmother as being "a friend to everyone". I want to work to be remembered FONDLY. I know I can often get wrapped up in my own selfish ways so this will be a healthy project for self fulfillment and development.
